Balancing Plates....

As you probably know, at times I have a tendency to get stressed out. I like things to laid out on the table for me. No surprises. Sadly, life doesn't work that way.  I sometimes have a difficult time putting things into perspective and I become a worry wart. Because of these tenancies, things that are important now tend to get put on the back burner as I am focusing my attention on things that may not be as important at that second. In the past, before Crystal left, I was able to count on her to help give our household balance. She and I work together to maintain our household and as a result, we are a solid team. Over the course of the last five and half months, I have had to learn to maintain our household/life by myself. This not only means I have to take care of my normal responsibilities, but also take on the jobs that my wife would normally handle. Things that, to be quite frank, I have never had to handle. For the most part, things have gone OK. I have definitely had some bonehead moves but with nobody here to smack me, I have had to bounce back on my own. Now that Keira and I have gotten into a new routine. I feel like we have stability. She and I are two peas in a pod when it comes to routine. Its the only way I can keep my sanity while balancing all these plates at once. My goal is to grow from this experience. I hope that one day I can see a challenge like this and instead of being fearful, I will have confidence. In the meantime, I am counting down the days until Crystal is home and we can all be a stable family once again. No matter what I do, I will never be able to replace what we have together.