Health & Perfection

So I realized fairly recently that it has been over a year since my last blog post. There are a number of potential reasons on why it has been so long. I tend to blame it on my lack of needing to bitch, combined with a busy life, and not a ton of alone time. All of these things are positive reasons so lets just leave it at that. Also, if you are reading this, you probably already know that my amazing, insanely beautiful girlfriend Lauren moved in with me this year and she has been the absolute definition of amazing. Unfortunately, this last year has still been a wild ride for me. Obviously I have continued to battle the genetic gods who have decided that poking at my organs like a voodoo doll is super fun. This year's pin cushion was my kidneys which are not filtering properly. As a result, I have been going through several rounds of medication that have super crappy side effects. The great news is, as I have been trying to figure out the best way to take care of myself with each "unsolved mystery," my support team as never been stronger. There are so many different moving parts that come with my medical ailments. From multiple weekly doctors appointments to the frustration of all the side effects, sometimes it feels like too much. To be completely honest, I get angry, frustrated, and frankly at times just want to give up. If it wasn't for my daily support team of family, friends, and Lauren, I would have probably already called it a day. If you ask me, my biggest character flaw is my constant strive toward perfection. Typically, not "half-assing" things is not a flaw. I just can't stand mediocrity. My constant goal of being perfect gets me every time.

This is where my support team comes into play. Whether it be at home, at work, or basically anywhere else, I am so unbelievably blessed. Despite all the crazy things that have happened, most of the time I feel like nobody is luckier than me. Every time I feel like the world is crashing down, something happens that reminds me of how far I am from being alone. Somebody always comes through in a way that I wasn't expecting.  After spending the evening with a buddy who also has his own struggles, I was again reminded of how everything we all deal with should be put into perspective. While I deal with whatever weird issue I am going through at the time, it's sometimes good to be reminded that it's not just you that is going through daily bullshit. Or weekly/monthly/yearly nonsense that can make anyone want to quit when it comes to life. Regardless, I am consistently reminded how perfection shouldn't be my goal. It helps me learn that I should focus on is what is in front of me that minute. Task at hand. That is what will make me my best. At at the end of each day, I am the luckiest guy I know, because I never have to worry about about being alone. My support team is and always will be here 24/7. Perfection isn't key. Just doing my best every day and appreciating those around me is best.