So here we are, at the end of 2012. Who would have guessed that this time last year, "Operation: Single Dad" would become a permanent blog name. I sure wouldn't have. Here I am, a week away from moving back to Colorado and I have no clue how to feel about it. Part of me is excited. A new beginning! Back with some of my family, and some of my best friends! Apparently a new job! There are definitely things to be excited about. And trust me, I really am excited about some aspects of it all. I love Colorado. I always knew someday I would be back there. There are so many people there I am so excited to finally be around permanently. I guess this just isn't the way I always envisioned it happening. It's all a big question mark. I feel like I am taking 3 steps backward when it comes to where I wanted my life to be heading at this point from where I was a year ago. And the biggest question I have is what I did to to take these backwards steps. I guess this is one of those cliches about how just when you think you have life all figured it, bam! You don't, and get to try it figure it out all again. Maybe that's a good thing. Maybe a year from now I will be sitting there in Colorado blogging about how lucky I am and how life is so amazing. I guess I can only hope. The Holiday's are a rough time for lot of people. This year has been especially rough for me and for the first time, I am honestly happy to get through them. I am missing two people especially and it was very tough watching Keira be so happy with both of her parents during Christmas, knowing in the back of my mind the entire time that this will be her final Christmas spent that way. I just love her so much and hate being a part of something that will ultimately leave her sad, angry, and mostly confused. I pray she never feels like any of it is her fault. That being said, there is also a big part of me that is honestly excited for the future. Having all these feelings I think is an important part of the healing process but I am 100% on board with moving on with my life and making things better than they have ever been. New life might be exactly what I need. New job might be the jump start to bigger and better things. I am unwilling to accept moving backward in my life. If life hands you lemons, throw them back and yell "I wanted beer!". That's what I say. Screw Lemons. (Unless they go in beer, like Easy Street Wheat, or some other awesome beer I can have now that I will be back in Colorado, or is that Oranges. Dammit. See! I've been away too long) Wish me luck friends. And those of you in Vegas, some of the best friends a guy could ask for, I promise to keep in touch. My goal is to try and come out here at least once a year for a specific event that is personal to me, and while I am here, I will be visiting all of you. In the meantime, always remember that my facebook, email, and more importantly my phone is always available to keep in touch with me. And if you would like to come to the nation's capital, (That's Fort Collins, Colorado right?) you know that you have a friend who will put you up and give you plenty of brewery tours. (New Belgium is there. I know you guys at least know Fat Tire. Trust me when I say that is only the beginning)
-Cam
